All he could say was I don’t know. Basically he didn’t know
very much. Course he didn’t do too well in school. Don’t you know how to read,
the kids would ask. Even the teachers complained, if he doesn’t know a B from an
A how can we teach him? Forget me he’d say, just teach the others. Get out of
here, the kids would sneer, school isn’t a place for kids who think an N is an
M. How come you never learned, how come you didn’t get it? It was clear he knew
his math, but the alphabet wasn’t for him. Just because I can’t get past F doesn’t
mean I’m dumb, he said and they all laughed. Knowing it can’t be that hard, he
yelled across the class. Let’s see him try and do this, after all these years
of not knowing the kids laughed. More and more he studied, his A’s and B’s and
C’s. No longer will they think I’m dumb, no longer will they doubt me. Over and
over again, he’d say the letters out loud, A then C, or is it B? Practice,
practice, practice. Quail starts with Q. Rocket is an R. Studying the letters
over and over, until he almost had them all. Time consuming it was, although it
did the trick. Ukulele starts with U. Vermont with a V. Wait I think I have it!
X. Y. Z.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Irony
It was the fifth of August 1996, a steaming hot day in
Georgia. My overalls stuck to my thighs, and my cotton candy ice cream cone
melted as my mother urged me to eat it before it melts all over my hand. Early
that morning we attended church, due to my good behavior I earned the now
melting ice cream cone. I trudged down the street holding onto my mother’s
hand, almost being dragged as my sweaty legs slumped under me. We approached
another church, just up the street from mine, and a group of men were standing
outside; screaming and yelling. My mother told me to look forward “Don’t say a
word you, just keep on walking” she said while wagging her finger in front of
my face. “Well why Mama, what those men doin” I said confused. “Just keep on
walking, don’t say a damn word” my mother said, she seemed afraid almost. I was
about six at the time, just learning how to read, and their signs caught my
eye. I stopped in the middle of the men, trying to read their signs. “Th-The
Bible says-says no ho-homes” I read confused “Mama, why don’t the Bible want
any homes?” I continued to ask her. “ I told you not to stop, that says homos
not homes, now let’s go I have to make lunch” my mother said while tugging
angrily at my arm. “No, let er stay, let her learn the right ways to be brought
up” one of the men said blank. He knelt down and looked at me dead in the eye,
getting closer to my face he said “Now little girl, has your momma taught you
about sexuality yet”. I shook my head, frightened by the stranger. My mother
tugged at my arm hard, and said to the man “She’s really too young to be
hearing about all this, we must be going” but the man insisted, and seemed to
frighten my mother so she backed away.
“Now look here little
girl, all I’m gonna tell you is that the only love that’s acceptable here, in
this country, and by God, is a man loving a women, and a women loving a man,
you got that?” he said closer to my face than before
“Well sir, why?”
“Because the Bible says so, don’t question it”
“But sir the Bible says love everyone, so I can’t love my
mama because she a girl?”
“Well uh, no not exactly like that..”
“Well then what exactly sir, because my church say that God
love and accept everyone, and my church say that lovin’ everyone is okay sir”
“Well, uh, well..”
By then a large crowd of people gathered around, women,
children, grown men. All of them intrigued by the man and I’s conversation. As
the man ran out of things to say ,people began to clap, and I never understood
why for a very long time. My mother and I walked away that day, and I didn’t
understand that I had put this protestor at a loss for words. I was too young
to understand, but those people around me they clapped, and that man, well he
shut up. In all honesty, this story was repressed somewhere in my head until
two years ago, at my uncles wedding. It was the first gay wedding in my town,
no one seemed to oppose it. My family was excited for my uncle and his husband,
and the rest of my small town seemed to be too. When my mom stood up to make
her toast, she didn’t praise my uncle’s like most of the other guest. Until she
told this story, and both of my uncles were at a loss for words. As for the man
I argued with that day, in front of the old church, well he’s now happily
married to my uncle Jimmy.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Triolet
You are young; you have your whole life ahead of you
Go out with your friends; dance all night long
Date that boy you like; tell your mother to make due
You are young; you have your whole life ahead of you
Make mistakes; don’t regret them
Buy that lipstick you like; why not get two
You are young; you have your whole life ahead of you
Don’t waste it; make it count
Dramatic Monologue
Dramatic monologue
When your eyes brighten
And your heart drops, whenever you see them
That’s when you know
When the world seems to come together
And the stars seem to all shine brighter, even on a cloudy
night
That’s when you know
When you don’t even hear your phone buzzing
And you forget about your essay, despite that its due
tomorrow
That’s when you know
When the sun hits the water
And their eyes still shine brighter, brighter than
everything
That’s when you know
When the words slip off your tongue
And faintly drift into their ear, almost silently
Make sure you know
Revised
When your eyes brighten
And your heart drops
That’s when you know
When the world seems to come together
And the stars seem to all shine brighter
That’s when you know
When you don’t even hear your phone buzzing
And you forget about your essay
That’s when you know
When the sun hits the water
And their eyes still shine brighter
That’s when you know
When the words slip off your tongue
And faintly drift into their ear
Make sure you know
Lament
Lament
I saw her at prom
Her eyes were dancing as much as she was
And her dress cascaded behind her
She was lively; her youthful smile couldn’t be forgotten
I wish I could see that smile again
I saw her at the party
Her eyes drooped low
And she stumbled down the hall
She clutched the wall, frail
I wish I helped her
I saw her get into her car
Her eyes looked at mine
And she struggled to get her keys in the ignition
She drove away, perilously
I wish I checked on her
I saw the funeral
Her eyes were shut
And her body was mangled
She was cold, absent
I wish I stopped her
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